So in an earlier post I wrote about tackling the route of my cleaning/organizing issue, which is picking up after myself. Lately I have been reflecting and analyzing many areas in my life. One is my attitude and stress levels. I get so overwhelmed and stressed, which then causes me to be really mean and sometimes yell. It's just not good at all. So I have been trying to figure out why this happens. I have always thought that it was because I am not completely organized and my house is always messy, but lately I have been getting things in order and keeping the house clean. I still have my moments of stress and yelling...so what is it?! I think I have finally figured it out. TIME. My time management skills are very bad. I seriously am always late, running behind, rushing, etc. When that stuff happens, I get mad and yell and say mean things and am just not a nice person. And you know what, I am more mad at myself but I feel like I need to blame it on others. There's no one to blame but me. I am the one who pressed snooze 10 times. I am the one who dilly-dallied and didn't get ready fast enough. I am the one who did pack things the night before. Me, me, me!
I don't understand why it's so freaking hard for me to get up and get ready in the morning. Maybe it's because we have a new(ish) baby and are finally starting to get good night sleeps. But I was like this before the baby, so I can't pass the buck there. I am just exhausted and tired and I hate when morning comes because I feel like I can never fall asleep at night and morning is when I am finally in my sweet, deep sleep. But in all seriousness, the days that I actually do wake up early and get ready and things ready before the kids are up, I am a much happier mom and wife and so much more productive. So it's time for some change. It's time for to take charge of my time!
From here on out, I am going to get up when I hear my alarm! I know it's not going to be perfect at first, but I need to do this for me and my family. Yes I am tired, but I am more tired of being mean and on edge and I need to change.
Good luck with that!! I never hit the snooze button, but every Sunday I sturggle getting up and getting going for some reason so instead of setting a later alarm and then sitting in bed for ten minutes I set my alarm early and then sit in bed and get up and the time my alarm would normally be going off. That might not work for everyone, especially if you fall back to sleep easily, but that's what works for me and I'm slowly going to start getting myself up earlier and then I won't be rushing to church! Haha I hope you can start working on this, I'm sure you'll be happier and so will your family!
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